Dream Meets Reality 11/02/2003 - 11:14 p.m. Music : Blow Away by Staind Mood : forgotten and unloved - - or maybe just alone and tired Random Proclamations from Me, Myself, and I : "What do you see when you're in the dark, and the demons come?" - In the Line of Fire Love forgotten? Me:"So, is this it". . . silence Me:"After all this time . . . you're going to run off with someone else?" X:"I don't want to hurt you..." Well, that was six months ago (I think to the day). Let me tell you, after so much time; time to heal, time to forget . . . IT STILL HURTS. Not as much mind you, but late at night when I lie awake in my bed . . . all I can feel is alone. But I want this pain in my heart to go away. You know the old saying, "Love dies hard"? Well, I'm beginning to think that Love, true love-the kind that some only dream about, the kind that I felt, never dies it only waits for the right moment to hit you. I'm usually the person with the best grasp on life, but my demons still haunt me; my mind is still infested with pain. There will be days when I'm in the clear; weeks where I don't even think about how it used to be . . . and then I remember something. Maybe it's just the smile that was not there before me. Maybe it was that look in your eyes; the one you never showed to anyone else. Maybe it was the smell of your showered hair as I held you in my arms. And then I fall right back into this pit. There is no one to pull me out; I don't have the courage to speak up, and I don't have the power to just forget. Maybe I'm bringing this up for no reason . . . maybe it's because I don't know who cares for me any more . . . 0 comments so far |
"When it was over, all I could think about was how this entire notion of oneself, what we are, is just this logical structure, a place to momentarily house all the abstractions. It was a time to become conscious, to give form and coherence to the mystery, and I had been a part of that. It was a gift. Life was raging all around me and every moment was magical. I loved all the people, dealing with all the contradictory impulses - that's what I loved the most, connecting with the people. Looking back, that's all that really mattered." -Waking Life Profile Notes Diaryland Archives |